DELUGE INFERIUM!!

though am a huge mumbai fan yet the monnsoons this city ofers is slightly beyond my appetitie.however if it werent for the supid corporate trap am stuck in id be spending some more days here smoking up or just chilling with the rain and a hot coffee.quite a respite from the sticky and irritaingf the capital offers.
but its not just the monsoons which are irritating ,the govt office i have to visit and the buffoonery is mindbogglingly and turns your head into a pin cushion.
though ive been very vocal about my aversion to a corporate job.little do i realise that am stuck in a typical job profile.talking to clients ,deliverable and the jazz(quite oxymoron ,considering how pleasant jazz is)however, the effort which goes into makeing a marlet report which we never bothered to read in clooege or the exclusive trade journals we hasd accesss to in college nopw seem excuisite when i have to do it myself.
thats as much praise for the job i can gather .rest i still think a corporate job sucks.firstly,you loo into a desk for almost 13 hrs a day and pretend you're living a good life.for someone whose been to sea its not a comfortable position .moreoevr the buz words do get to you after some time.
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they're nauseating and don't know who bothered to sit and think about it.apparently they represent the holy grail for consultants ,which i am currently till i get back to sea and get some oil on my hands.
also the money ,the glamour belies the salaries juniors get while thier seniors walk away with commisons and bonuses with the grunt work you put in.so its more about the politics than the merit.quite a broad classification but still.
apart from that trying to make non shipping people explain how it works makes me loose hair every day.the fact that they consider it easy to understand is an example of their naivety .if it were so simple clarksons ,drewry and the likes would not have been shelling out packages to their analyst and consultants like they are doing now.

Firstly thank you mr phton for the godspeed ypu endow my work with.10 min for this tab to open is not much of a time .
ok so last times blog was mostly a stress venting excercise( when isnt it?).nevrmind.
well i find myself today in a very precarious situation as of now. my corporate career seems to be in doldrums with me trying to bite more than i could chew.good lesson to learn.however, what i did was fun.trying to build a pricing model for matime LNG which almost all the brokers said they dint know anything about and those who knew wont talk without being paid.niether would i!!its all about the idea after all.
my colleagues who apparently have no knowledge of whatever i do are acting as my sparring partners .basically babysitting me until my boss arrives. its very frustrating to work with someone who believes in the broader picture and doesn't believe in the concept of finding the lacunaes in the system in ordr tp provide a solution.i thought consultant and analyst while writing expensive reports provide their own analysis and data modelling.but what  it is just a better organized college assignment which is marketed and sold in a manner makeing it  a source of profound knowledge and business insight.

so when you talk about doing something new theres alot of resistance and those comforatble in thier seats would never wnat it to happen or will never help you do it .i dont feel bad about it coz people such as these make you realize youre doing something right or atleast youre going to sleep peacefully bcause you did what you believd in .

my switch to a corporate job has changed my perception about life completely and sailing just doesn't seem like a career option now .its like a side income source and excuse to stay away from home as well.made me realize the satisfaction a start up can bring to your life just anything small .entrepreneurship is not that bad after all.could started my own thing had there been some help .but my current financial credibility doesn't allow me that luxury either so have to go back to sea and come back get the house repaired etc and other shit!!

PS :dont listen to All India Bakchods in the metro .ppl standing around will think youre crazy