JIBBERISH CONTINNUUM

FINALLYYYY!!! the page loaded and i hereby cease to use tethering any longer .
waiting for the result.listening to inbloom in loop.browsing through zenpencils and thinking whether i should start the del or not.
realised writing in point form i easier or is seems as of now
thought of going to buy books from nehru place dont see the point in paying so much money when knowledge should not be only for the rich
seem to be in activism mode
want to go traveling ,go to kasaul perhaps,try malana and the variety try an out of body experience
anyways,got my salary yesterday,want tot go and buy books but dont have th time to read them .
waiting to go back sailing so can put things staright at home

lots of thoughts ,and cobain sings again!!!

#GIBBERISH

applying the pyramid principle to the blog (as taught to all consultants,cant believe am using that word for my self).for a brief period of time i did like the idea of being a corporate and using buzzwords which seemed so cool.blessed was the class 4 exam which i gave (again!!) that no matter how much i enjoyed the presentation and the big talk(which i realize ) was hollow, there's nothing better than working at sea .another sickening thing i experienced was the politics and the emphasis on the presentation than the content.i wish i could share this on Facebook at least that would've lead to my boss firing me !!would want that to happen how so much i want to quit myself.another amusing thing is the importance these people give to thee so called concepts developed by class room bred academicians.i mean ,which practical person would give three hoots about them or were they present when any of the big business houses were being build .i feel they are taught just because something has to be told in order to fill the time which is generally filled by the non sense of consulting practices.

another disgusting practice is the undertaking of projects which they don't know anything about .its another thing to have learning mindset but its unethical to commit to a task which you don't know anything about neither do you intend to learn enough in order to help the other person.

if its just you who'll be affected then doesn't matter but we shouldn't jeopardize someones time and money to give them half baked information

coming to the present day.,another weekend goes waste ,lack of money,friends,choices and other important stuff to catch up with  means i stay at home for most of it barring the odd smoke trip to the market. but then it also gives me a chance write this blog and keep it alive. never realized the kind of joy writing can give .

anyways, working at this place introduced me to alot of cool websites ,results of befriending a typical geek.one of them being zenpencils.com,which is the coolest inspirational site iv ever come across.it just tells about the effort people have put to  take their dreams turn into realities and how possible it is to happen.

have few of my own and pray to god everyday to provide me with the conviction and the courage to go beyond what i feel is my limit and achieve what i intend to .

hope he listens and answers my prayers.after all i know i have the will he needs to show me the way ahead .

also excited to meeet my nephew(know that sounds gay,not that am homophobic but still,the next gen of drunkards is here and they need to be baptized by uncle ) 

another thing ,please excuse the grammatical errors or formatting as corporates call it.

DELUGE INFERIUM!!

though am a huge mumbai fan yet the monnsoons this city ofers is slightly beyond my appetitie.however if it werent for the supid corporate trap am stuck in id be spending some more days here smoking up or just chilling with the rain and a hot coffee.quite a respite from the sticky and irritaingf the capital offers.
but its not just the monsoons which are irritating ,the govt office i have to visit and the buffoonery is mindbogglingly and turns your head into a pin cushion.
though ive been very vocal about my aversion to a corporate job.little do i realise that am stuck in a typical job profile.talking to clients ,deliverable and the jazz(quite oxymoron ,considering how pleasant jazz is)however, the effort which goes into makeing a marlet report which we never bothered to read in clooege or the exclusive trade journals we hasd accesss to in college nopw seem excuisite when i have to do it myself.
thats as much praise for the job i can gather .rest i still think a corporate job sucks.firstly,you loo into a desk for almost 13 hrs a day and pretend you're living a good life.for someone whose been to sea its not a comfortable position .moreoevr the buz words do get to you after some time.
STRUCTURE           ALIGNMENT       TOP DOWN    BOTTOM UP   INSIDE OUT
they're nauseating and don't know who bothered to sit and think about it.apparently they represent the holy grail for consultants ,which i am currently till i get back to sea and get some oil on my hands.
also the money ,the glamour belies the salaries juniors get while thier seniors walk away with commisons and bonuses with the grunt work you put in.so its more about the politics than the merit.quite a broad classification but still.
apart from that trying to make non shipping people explain how it works makes me loose hair every day.the fact that they consider it easy to understand is an example of their naivety .if it were so simple clarksons ,drewry and the likes would not have been shelling out packages to their analyst and consultants like they are doing now.

Firstly thank you mr phton for the godspeed ypu endow my work with.10 min for this tab to open is not much of a time .
ok so last times blog was mostly a stress venting excercise( when isnt it?).nevrmind.
well i find myself today in a very precarious situation as of now. my corporate career seems to be in doldrums with me trying to bite more than i could chew.good lesson to learn.however, what i did was fun.trying to build a pricing model for matime LNG which almost all the brokers said they dint know anything about and those who knew wont talk without being paid.niether would i!!its all about the idea after all.
my colleagues who apparently have no knowledge of whatever i do are acting as my sparring partners .basically babysitting me until my boss arrives. its very frustrating to work with someone who believes in the broader picture and doesn't believe in the concept of finding the lacunaes in the system in ordr tp provide a solution.i thought consultant and analyst while writing expensive reports provide their own analysis and data modelling.but what  it is just a better organized college assignment which is marketed and sold in a manner makeing it  a source of profound knowledge and business insight.

so when you talk about doing something new theres alot of resistance and those comforatble in thier seats would never wnat it to happen or will never help you do it .i dont feel bad about it coz people such as these make you realize youre doing something right or atleast youre going to sleep peacefully bcause you did what you believd in .

my switch to a corporate job has changed my perception about life completely and sailing just doesn't seem like a career option now .its like a side income source and excuse to stay away from home as well.made me realize the satisfaction a start up can bring to your life just anything small .entrepreneurship is not that bad after all.could started my own thing had there been some help .but my current financial credibility doesn't allow me that luxury either so have to go back to sea and come back get the house repaired etc and other shit!!

PS :dont listen to All India Bakchods in the metro .ppl standing around will think youre crazy

IN TRANSIT

mumbai has to wait for now.thanks to the amazingly fast railways website which Ive been trying to access for the last two hours. not that it disappointing all the time .it has proved worthy of the millions spent over it but nevertheless it proves quite useless as of now. Ive been travelling a lot by train (when things were better at home there was no question of it as taking a flight seemed the only option but  times change) .though long and tiresome they allow me privacy and the luxury to get buried into my thoughts, read a book listen to music without anyone calling out for me.add to that getting down and hogging at the fried fare at stations.or the flavoured milk in baroda , biryai at a station just before pune.in the process you also get to see small towns which you never hear of but are amazed at the modernisation deep within the interiors. however it is the bus journeys which are most enjoyable never mind the fact you have to wait for a smoke but  otherwise the constant buzz of the engine and the sights and sounds of the hypnotic hillsides are irreplaceable by the comfort and speed of the railways. cant afford an enfield but always wish i would in the future as i perceive it to be an amazing mode of transport if you're the sorts for whom the journey is more enchanting than the destination. Ive grown even more fond of my concept of travelling ever since i read "walk across America".very clearly does the author express his true intention of his still ensuing travel.to know himself better which a normal family setting and city influences doesn't allow as they guide more towards it wants you to be rather than what you're supposed to be. however this means forgetting about your responsibilities and other stuff (including bitchy friends and judging relatives) which doesn't seem possible for me but i guess ill definitely go wandering once there's some moolah to keep the family happy and pay off all dues and loans.lets hope it happens fast.

MAXIMUM CITY INDEED!!

Mumbai has this sheer enormity which absorbs anyone coming to it.though it doesn't extend an open armed welcome but yet it blows you away with its speed of life and  carefree attitude.i v never heard mumbaikars being concerned about what you wear where you live or where you hang out.true some reservations are always there.after all its a materialistic world but compared to the snobbery experienced in the capital Mumbai is always a welcome change. one of the best part about Mumbai are the cheap and amazing irani restaurants which have generation after generation served the most amazing non veg fare . the few places where you feel at ease in the sweltering humid summers of a coastal city yet the easy going ,unassuming nature of these places put you at ease immediately.
bade mians though i guess is nothing more than an overpriced shit hole!!compared to the amazing stuff outside bandra station or at baghdadis or the innumerable joints in haji ali area. anyways, apart from these as an engineer unwilling to work in a office and wanting to get my hands dirty(not really) mumbai has well connected industrial areas around and within which though is a major reason for the pollution yet also provides employment to millions of workers and professionals who otherwise would be rusting their skills and pushing paper over pen (its a terrifying though .writing is a more of an expression and if god forbid have to do it for a living id never have words to express ever.not that i am eloquent now but still.)